Delayed

How can it already be March 19?  It sure doesn't feel like it.  The snow is still two feet deep.  Monday morning the temperature was -27 when I got up.  And it shows no sign of warming up in the next few days.  Sigh.

I keep telling myself that spring has to come sooner or later.  Doesn't it?  It can't be delated indefinitely.  Can it?

I have been torturing myself with memories from our years in Toronto of returning to work after the March Break and walking to school past green yards and blooming crocuses and tulips.  I loved the transition of little green shoots to buds, then full blooms.  It felt like some days you could stop and watch the leaves unfurl on the trees.

Can you tell what my favourite season is?  Something about the fresh start just speaks to me.

When it finally arrives, spring here is pretty wonderful too.  It explodes with each day getting noticeably longer (we gain several minutes of daylight a day).  One day there is snow everywhere, then it is suddenly rushing to the lakes in streams.

I love the day when we can pack all that bulky winter gear away and pull out rain boots and mud suits.  And we all have so much fun exploring the changes in the bush after the snow disappears.

Just a few more weeks. right?  Right?

Let Go(d)

Happiness is a choice.  It doesn't just happen to you.  One day you wake up and are happy with your life.  You have to choose consciously each day to be happy.

I have been struggling with anxiety over the past months.  Mostly about our future.  I acknowledge in my head that it is in God's hands, but I have struggled so much with really letting go of making plans and worrying about it.  This weekend I decided that it is time.

Time to let go completely and seize today.  No more moaning about where we will live, or what we will do, or anything.  Just trust for tomorrow.

And today?  Well, it is full of delight and laughter if I stay present in it.

Kids helping out in the kitchen and giggling about it.

Snuggling puppies.

A hug from my sweetie.

Stars in the sky.

Sitting as a family at the breakfast table.

Getting ready for special school days together.

Quiet evenings with a peaceful house.

God is very good to have blessed me with all this.  He will continue to be good if I just let him.